Chapter 1: Rising Intuition - Part 1
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Suddenly it occurred to me that something was seriously wrong, as I noticed her eyes were no longer finding mine. I wondered, "How long had this been happening?" My heart dropped in that moment as I realized it had been happening for a while. I began having a conversation with myself, as I faced the reality that I had subconsciously disregarded recognizing her lack of eye contact. Questions swarmed in my mind like a hive of bees, traveling deep into my stomach. It was a gut-wrenching feeling hearing my intuition whisper that my fourth child, at 14 months old, was different from the others at this age. I wrestled back and forth with my thoughts, one part of me saying, "You are overthinking, she is fine," and the other saying, "Stop avoiding what needs to be acknowledged."
As the days passed, I didn’t share my concerns with anyone, not even her father. The realization that my daughter no longer responded to my presence when I spoke to her was too alarming for me to share with others initially. This new discovery hit me incredibly hard and felt very heavy. In those early moments, I denied my intuition’s guide. It wouldn't be until later that I would push through, no longer listening to the voice that would have me ignore the obvious. I had so many questions, and with no prior experience managing such an array of thoughts, I felt scared.
Linda was my fourth child and since nothing remotely similar happened with the other three, I was stunned at how to move forward. All I knew was that I wanted to sort this out alone. Perhaps I was holding onto a hope of finding an answer that would make my heavy concern go away. The battle continued as I tried to find a rational way to process what I was facing in secret. While surveying my thoughts, new questions surfaced. What other behaviors had I overlooked?
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